As many of you already know, this is not my usual format for my newsletters…but with everything in my life changing, there is no longer much of the “usual” in evidence. Even as a child, I was never much of a fan of Halloween. The idea of dressing up as who I was not, just so people could pretend to guess who I was, even with the reward of a trick or treat, didn’t make much sense to me.
Of course I never was much of a romantic… then. But today I realized that somewhere in my life I made a choice to dress up and pretend to be what I was not, so that people would provide some type of reward; acknowledgement or recognition for who I was, unfortunately all I received were tricks.
Tricks, not done by other people, but those I performed on myself. Tricks to convince myself that I wasn’t good enough; tricks that said that I needed to fit into places that were too tight/restrictive; tricks that said I had to agree with what wasn’t the truth about me or anyone else; tricks that said that God wasn’t readily available; tricks that said love, peace and joy were not available in this world.
This year I am going to celebrate Halloween as myself. To come into the “I am” presence, that I have always been but thought that I had to disguise. I will come into the love, peace and joy that is inherent in my creation. I will embody the Christ consciousness, not as something dead, but as the life and living available in each and every moment. This Halloween I will treat myself to the divine presence of my being. Who will you show up as this Halloween?
