Healing and The power of The Mind
Our lives are not determined by what happens to us but by how we react to what happens, not by what life brings to us, but by the attitude we bring to life. A positive attitude causes a chain reaction of positive thoughts, events, and outcomes. It is a catalyst, a spark that creates the extraordinary. ANON
Early one morning in March 2003, I heard my inner voice speaking very loudly and succinctly that I needed to make an appointment to see a doctor and have my blood pressure checked! Needless to say I was surprised. I hadn’t seen a Doctor in over fifteen years. In fact I didn’t even have a doctor. So I asked, Is there a problem with my blood pressure? I was immediately answered. Yes and I was told that it was at a crisis point. Having some idea of the process that I would need to undertake to accomplish seeing a doctor, I asked if I would be okay. I was told that I would be protected but that it was important for me to be an active part of the process.
I made an appointment with a doctor at an area clinic and was given an appointment for several weeks away. I didn’t get upset or worry during this time… I simply kept present in the moment and rested on the assurance that I was protected. When I finally went for my appointment, the doctor assistant became very agitated and concerned. I asked her what was she so upset about and she informed me that my blood pressure was at “stroke” levels. I assured her that I felt fine and would continue to be fine. When the doctor came in to see me she asked what had brought me in to the office. I told her the truth. My inner voice had instructed me to come because there was a problem with my blood pressure. I watched while she worked to integrate this information. She placed me on medication and took blood work to discern the cause of my symptoms. This began a process that lasted for eighteen months.
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The process was not just about my health but it was about being at peace regardless of the appearances; holding on to what I knew was the truth about me; and standing in my integrity throughout the journey. In June, I was diagnosed as having “Graves disease” (hyperthyroidism) which is a dysfunction of the Thyroid gland. The prognosis isn’t very pleasant and the “cure” is radical. (At least in my mind!) It was very interesting that once I was diagnosed with this “disease” my personhood suddenly disappeared and I became a file number and who I was became a disease… at least to the medical field. This I was unwilling to accept. It seems that when something happens that is outside of our familiar arena of life, it is very easy to give up ourselves to “the professional”, to submit to the “specialist” our power. I knew that I was more than any diagnosis and that the cause was not in my body because it (both the cause and the solution) was in my mind. It became imperative that I not give over my “self” or my “power”. I decided to hear the advice that they knew how to give and the make my own decision. After hearing what advice they offered, I went on-line to the Internet where I researched the disease, its’ symptoms, the prognosis and recommended treatment. I also looked for a picture of a normal Thyroid and began to get a clear understanding what its’ function was and how it performed its function.
I also made the decision to not seek for or encourage the opinions or advice of those around me. The truth is, I really didn’t care about others’ opinions or their experiences. I had compassion but I was not willing to take on the decision that they had made for themselves as my reality. Many asked me the reason that I was experiencing this process. I had to honestly admit that I didn’t know…yet. But I assured them that I would find the cause and heal whatever the mistaken idea that I was holding in my mind… that was where the root of the dysfunction lay!
When you come to the end of all the light you know, and it’s time to step into the darkness of the unknown, faith is knowing that one of two things shall happen: Either you will be given something solid to stand on or you will be taught to fly.
I didn’t withdraw from my diagnosis or try to deny it or give in to it. I let all thoughts of the disease go…and saw only a healthy well-functioning Thyroid. This is the image I held during visualizations, this is the image that I held in my mind. I realized that a moment after the diagnosis was given to me it became part of my past. I was willing to let the past be the past knowing that it had no power over me. But I also began a process on deep introspection, contemplation and journaling the thoughts and ideas that were being revealed to me. I brought my mind to a place of stillness when I wasn’t working on my inner issues, and just listened. When I wasn’t doing either of these things I lived life.
I was unwilling to be limited in anyway. I was going to conduct a tour throughout Peru in July and was told by my doctor that she didn’t recommend that I go. She felt that it probably be more than I could physically handle. I thanked her and went anyway. I had no idea how I would succeed, I had about a thimble full of vitality and energy, but I knew that the tour was important to complete. I realized that my body would perform exactly as my mind directed and that with God nothing was impossible. The tour was wonderful and I returned home with a renewed awareness of the results that I could experience whenever I was willing to experience myself outside of the box.
Upon my return home the doctors informed me that in order to correct the dysfunction of my thyroid I would need to have a procedure performed that would radiate and kill my thyroid. Once it was dead they would give me a medication that would replace the hormones that were needed and I would be cured. I could not help but giggle at the paradox. I asked my inner voice and received a resounding “absolutely not”! The doctors were not pleased at all with my decision.
The medication that they started me with would decrease the hyperactive state that my thyroid was experiencing but my thyroid would never function normally again and the side effects of the medication were such that they “feared” me taking it for any length of time. Again I thanked them but declined. They assured me that at some point I would decide that they were right and agree to the procedure. I smiled!
In the following year, I worked on my inner healing. Healing those thoughts that no longer supported me. I continued my meditation, contemplation and journaling. I continued to listen to my inner voice for guidance and direction. It was a phenomenal time for me to come into a greater awareness of who I am and why I am here. I came to realize the inner struggle that I have carried my whole life about being a facilitator and messenger for spiritual truths, growth and awareness. I realized that my struggle is what manifested my physical condition so I began to peel away the layers of my own resistance to come to a place of peace beyond all appearances.
You gain strength, courage, and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. You are able to say to yourself, “I have lived through this horror. I can take the next thing that comes along.” . . . You must do the thing you think you cannot do.
This past year I moved beyond all fear to come into total trust of my source, God. Knowing without any reservations that God is not out there but is within and can be joined with my mind if I willingly allow it. Within this union, my mind is all-powerful, unchanging, and externally free. I also needed to release control of my life to him. To trust that what ever I was asked to do there was a plan for the greater good even if I didn’t understand how that might manifest. It has been during this process that I realized how tenaciously I held on to control (high blood pressure). Even now I work daily to remind myself that Gods’ plan doesn’t deny me but reaffirms who and what I am.
In January of this year my inner voice told me that I had no need of the medication and to stop taking it because the healing was complete; and so I did. March 20th, I had a previously scheduled doctors’ appointment and after the blood work was completed I was told that my thyroid was normal and that I didn’t require any further medication.
Yes…the healing of my thyroid is complete but the healing of my mind is still a work in progress. This I do willingly and joyfully. To uncover any thoughts that I still hold that would limit in anyway all that I am, all that I was created as, and all that I have to give. There is truly no appearance or condition in my life that I can’t heal, transform and make new. I fully realize that I have help because, “Of myself I can do nothing but through God all things are possible”.
I share my story with you to affirm, support and encourage you to step out side of your box of self imposed limitations; face your fears; heal your mind; and learn how to fly.
Blessings,
Danielle
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