PATIENCE
“The secret of health for both mind and body is not to mourn for the past, worry about the future, or anticipate troubles but to live in the present moment wisely and earnestly.”
–Buddha
August was a wonderful month of relaxation, re-connecting and celebrations filled with pockets of pleasant surprises. I spent a wonderful ten days in California. I want to especially thank those who came out to my class on “Purpose” and for those who made the time to come by and just say hello! It was during this time, while sitting quietly listening I heard my inner voice say the word “ Patience”. I continued sitting in the quiet hoping that more would come…but it didn’t. A couple of days later while sitting I again heard my inner voice speaking. It said the word “change” and then it once again repeated the word “Patience” but nothing more was given to me at that time. I begin to fell agitated and when I explored the reason for this emotion I became very conscious of the fact the word “patience” carried some emotional charge for me. I could remember times when I was young being told repeatedly told that I needed to be patient! I suddenly could hear the fingernails as the raked the chalkboard of my mind. I still remembered the frustration that it brought up in me. The thought that I needed to wait on someone to have what I wanted did not make me happy. But over time I matured. I finally grew up enough to realize that life was not just all about me! I went ahead and accomplished what I wanted on my own rather than ask for help because I still wasn’t okay with waiting. I felt very humble (or perhaps shameful) when I read the Biblical story of Job and his amazing patience. Whether it was a correct perception or not I believed that for Job to have achieved this state of patience he had to endure and suffer. To many his patience was a sign of virtue but to me it seemed like a place and experience of despair.
As I made a conscious decision to include into my life a place for spiritual practice, I realized that in order to come into a greater awareness that I would need to ask for help. Being very aware of my spiritual guides (my inner voice(s), I asked for their help and they agreed to assist me. I realized that going ahead alone would not help me accomplish the skills and knowledge that I desired. My inner voice helped me come into a surrender and peace about patience. Often when I asked a question or wanted an experience the answer or experience would come immediately but often it didn’t seem to come for so long that I thought that the question or experience had been forgotten. One afternoon I asked why this was occurring. My inner voice immediately responded, “that some of the questions that you asked and the experiences that you have wanted weren’t given to you at the time of your request because you weren’t ready for the answers or experiences”. He also explained to me that it was a matter of my readiness to receive and to know how the information was to be utilized. Awareness was a place of expansion and when I wasn’t given an answer or experience, there were events the moment the question was asked, unfolding to increase my awareness so that I could receive the new insights/information. I began to pay attention to those times my request seemed delayed and I became very aware of different and unusual events and circumstances that began to reshape my perceptions. When I finally received an answer or experience it came in a way that was easily understood and was integrated with very little effort. Patience had its’ own rewards and I felt blessed in so many ways.
A couple days after I had arrived home I was sitting on the patio in the silence. My inner voice spoke to me again repeating the word “Patience.” Before I could take a breath he continued,” Patience is an affirmation of faith that you have in your Father to answer your every need and desire!”
I realized, in that moment, that I was being asked to be patient. Not from a place of dread and despair but from a place of joyous anticipation knowing that my needs and desires are answered. I knew that I merely needed to be present, holding the affirmation in my mind and not allowing any other appearances to weaken my faith.
As the month of September begins to come to a close it has been a time of focus on my practice of patience. It seems that the energy of change has surrounded me and I have been in gratitude for the gift of patience. The affirmation of faith that was given me has kept me in a state of peace and happiness regardless of appearances around me. I know that the outcome will be more than I hoped for, more than I asked for and all that I desired.
In this moment, I sit in the silence, patiently and joyously knowing that my Father is working a plan of abundance, health, safety, peace for me and for the world!
Blessings,
Danielle
